"Do not be angry with the rain; it simply does not know how to fall upwards." – Vladimir Nabokov
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Usually, Juvia is a conundrum.
She isn't an unhappy girl (not now that she's found Fairy Tail) but at the same time, she isn't a happy one, either.
The
front room of Fairy Hills is empty when she opens the door. Silently,
she moves through the building – it's too late to be yesterday and too
early to be tomorrow, and she knows that this is a time to be quiet and
alone.
No-one knows better than her when it is appropriate to be
in solitude (even though the sound of the rain billowing against the
walls of this building sounds different from her old guildhall, and she loves that).
Juvia is the drip-drop in
the corner and she is the mist that gives you shivers in the morning.
She is like a storm out at sea, and if you are careless, you will
unwittingly drown. She's seen it happen over and over and over,
countless times.
Indeed, if there is one thing that Juvia knows – one thing that Juvia does best – it is rain.
They
used to say she made God cry. She didn't mean to, she never did, but it
didn't matter what she wanted and what she didn't because the fact of
the matter was that wherever she went, the rain followed.
She
gently closes the door behind her, not wanting to disturb anyone who
might be up at this time. (She saw the Titania polishing some armour
through the window – Juvia must remind herself that she is not alone in
her loneliness).
She used to hate it, she used to hate the rain (but isn't that what Juvia is? they would ask)
but then she got used to the wet clothes and the heavy hair. She got
used to stabbing against her skin and soon enough, she herself joined
the water and it didn't hurt anymore. It took time, but she accepted it
in the end (even though she was happy when he took it away).
Juvia has been at Fairy Tail for three days, and she is already terrified. She wonders who she will drown this time. (Maybe she should leave now, before she can't.)
She strips out of her wet clothes (they were cold)
and lets them pool on the floor behind her. She wraps a bathrobe around
her body – it's huge and completely engulfs her in its embrace – and
carefully opens her window.
The familiar patter against the glass
soothes her. She lets her hand dangle outside, let's the raindrops
splatter across her arm and shatter into tiny liquid fragments, or
watches as they meld with her because she is water and they are the
same.
Juvia is made of rain.
It's a little strange to know that it wasn't her fault this time – she hasn't done that, (not since meeting him,) not since seeing that blue, blue sky.
Right now, it is Juvia who is following the rain, and not the other way around. But it's still the same, really, no matter what the order.
Rain will fall eventually. (and so did she)
(and
she remembers his hand around her arm after he fought, he defeated her,
and he was holding her up, keeping her from falling and shattering like
one of these little, delicate raindrops.)
Her concentration is lost – her hand becomes solid again and the water breaks against her skin once more.
For the first time in a long time, Juvia doesn't mind. It's not that bad, falling... if somebody wants to catch you.
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(fairy tail - juvia loxar)www.fanfiction.net/s/9793833/1/Rain-Doll
