the blank sheet of the next year

It's the wariness you have right before you write something in a brand new notebook. It's that feeling you get - that tingling - right before you jump from somewhere very high.

"You shouldn't do this. This could go wrong. But go for it anyway.
You want this, and you need this."

Because I do find blank sheets of paper intimidating. I'm really scared of the next year. 2014 feels like it came too soon. But in reality, I know that I've just been too late in preparing for the transition.

blank paper by ~Amenah on deviantART

"it's not the end"

Do you ever get up in the middle of the night (or, having stayed up, have a sudden brainstorm) and feel like you have to carry through with whatever idea or project you've suddenly thought of?

Well, that's what I did.

I kept humming Avril Lavigne's Hello Heartache, and that, coupled with the weird 'you must create' atmosphere of 2am, resulted in this:

it's not the end by ~Amenah on deviantART  

I call it "it's not the end". Make of it what you will.

(it took a little over an hour total.

 pencil, watercolour, inkpens.
29th December 2013.)