i don't want good without bad

I don't want good without bad.
I don't want glad without sad.
I don't need lies and I don't need smiles,
and I still love the friends who will not stay.

if someone handed me a gun

" If someone handed me a gun, and told me to shoot someone ~

— told me to shoot you or shoot myself, I wouldn't think twice. You've been hurt enough by people who love you, and I'll stay off that list at all costs.
Well, let me rethink that answer. I wouldn't shoot myself either; I'd probably end up kicking gun-guy in the balls and running to tell you all about it over a glass of toxin.
Now, that would be a hell of a funny story. "