sunshine
"There is really no such thing as bad weather, only different kinds of good weather." - John Ruskin
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It is night-time and Juvia is looking up.
She does that a lot now (now that she can see the sky), and she can't get over how beautiful the stars are.
She's outside the guildhall with everyone else – with her 'nakama' – and she doesn't think has ever felt so at home for a very, very long time.
It's such a pleasant night. So warm. When she thinks nobody is looking, Juvia smiles wider than she ever has before.
She thought wrong.
"Are you a fan of the night sky, too?"
Juvia stiffens at that voice, but she still looks round – the girl is sweet and beautiful and far took kind (and Juvia almost drowned her less than a month ago).
Lucy Heartfilia beams at her. "I absolutely love the stars. Well,"– she laughs and it's warm and lovely and carefree (and everything that Juvia is not) –"you could have guessed that." She winks and wiggles her hips to make her keys (keys that Juvia left in the street) jangle. "I am a celestial wizard, after all."
Suddenly, Juvia feels cold. An unwelcome shiver runs up her spine and she can't look her in the eye, she can't, she can't–
Lucy
seems to understand and instead wordlessly looks up with that wide eyed
gaze of hers. She doesn't notice the stare she's receiving from the
blunette.
This girl is his team-mate – his most precious nakama. Her hair is sunny, her smile is radiant, and she's friendly and open and read like a book. (The complete opposite of the rain woman, Juvia thinks bitterly.)
This girl has faith in her friends, and has found a family in her
guild, so much so that she ran away from home... Juvia is confused
because isn't that a selfish thing to do?
But Lucy Heartfilia isn't selfish, she isn't, because she forgave Juvia (and Juvia cannot forgive her for that).
But Lucy Heartfilia isn't selfish, she isn't, because she forgave Juvia (and Juvia cannot forgive her for that).
For the first time in her life, Juvia understands how it feels to drown; the weight of her guilt is crushing her.
"Juvia?"
Lucy's looking at her again with that sunny smile and she almost looks
away, but suddenly the girl's hand is around Juvia's wrist and she's
trapped. She accidentally flinches at the contact - she's scared because
Lucy's smile is gone and Juvia knows what's going to happen now, she
knows, she knows–
"I hope you won't judge me because of my father," Lucy blurts out.
What? Juvia is taken aback; she stares at the blonde girl with round eyes.
Lucy
is blushing now – she's let go of Juvia's wrist, instead fingering the
handles of her stellar keys self-consciously. "I-... It's kind of
embarrassing. I don't know what you must think of me, but I..." Lucy
laughs nervously, her hand rising to the back of her head unconsciously –
Juvia noticed earlier that that's what the Salamander does, and it
makes her wonder... (because who could be more suited to each other than those two?)
Lucy continues, "You should know that I'm not sorry for what I did or
how I acted, though. It's not the best introduction, but I..."
Lucy
turns and clasps Juvia's hands in her own, and the rain woman is so
shocked she jumps. It makes Lucy laugh and all of a sudden, she's lit up
again like the sun and Juvia can't stop wondering what magic could make
a smile like that.
"I love Fairy Tail, Juvia. I would do anything to protect it. It's my family"– there's that word again, they're always saying it,
Juvia notices fondly –"and I love it with all my heart. Every single
member is dear to me." Lucy watches her intently as she says this, and
Juvia is suddenly very aware of the hands holding her own. "Fairy Tail
is really special, Juvia. You'll see."
Juvia is breathless, and – she notices with such surprise that she's blushing!? (Out of the corner of her eye, she sees the Salamander and Gajeel-kun and him watching the two of them, and the blush intensifies because he is looking at Juvia-!)
And
then Lucy's let go of her hands and she's staring back up at the sky
and pointing out the constellation for Aquarius because she thinks Juvia
would like that one. The rain woman has never met another girl so
special, and she thinks she understands why he treasures her so much now.
And Juvia is sodamnjealous. (But right now, that hardly matters at all.)
And now Lucy is laughing at something Natsu has done as she runs to him, to her best friend.
Juvia laughs as well, and follows–
(because he is there and he is shirtless!)
–because Lucy had misunderstood, she misunderstood in the sweetest, sweetest way, and she had forgiven Juvia, she welcomed her to her family, and now, Juvia can understand why the whole guild was willing to sacrifice so much to protect this sunny, lovely girl, and now–
(because he is there and he is shirtless!)
–because Lucy had misunderstood, she misunderstood in the sweetest, sweetest way, and she had forgiven Juvia, she welcomed her to her family, and now, Juvia can understand why the whole guild was willing to sacrifice so much to protect this sunny, lovely girl, and now–
She doesn't know how it happened, but–
now Juvia understands more and more what makes Fairy Tail so right for her.
now Juvia understands more and more what makes Fairy Tail so right for her.
She feels more at home than ever (and she hopes she is because she doesn't want to leave.) And she wants something else, something she didn't even know about until now.
Juvia hopes that someone like Lucy - someone with so much sunshine in their soul - would concede to being friends with a rain woman.
Juvia hopes that someone like Lucy - someone with so much sunshine in their soul - would concede to being friends with a rain woman.
She glances up again at the stars, and smiles.
(She might might might be healing.)
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(fairy tail - juvia loxar)
