" Why do we only
learn to love when it's too late to hold on to it?
And why is it so unexpected? Where were you when I was looking for
someone to hold me?— when I was lonely?— when I was hurt? Where
were you when I caught that bouquet at the wedding where I spilled
red wine on my dress?
And why did you have to be the one? Why you? Why not your sweet
little brother, or your cool, crisp best friend? Why did it have to
be you?— the screw-up, the lost-cause, the angry, angry, angry
one?
And why did it have to be now? You burst into my days like fire,
show me things I should never have seen, and think I can just throw
out those memories like you can? Why did you think, even for a
moment, that I was able to forget how your breath felt on
my neck in that alleyway? You know what I mean. That night when you
saved me. When we laughed together for the first time.
Burning. Goosebumps. Shivers. A sigh.
You know what happened in that moment? Do you even have any idea
what you did to me? All of a sudden, you weren't just 'that
guy' but you were 'this guy' right in front of
me, with a warm chest and a broad back and sculpted arms that fit
around me perfectly. All of a sudden, I couldn't get enough
looks at your arrogant expressions - my eyes suddenly followed you
across the room unknowingly, every red would be compared to your stupid messy hair, no man's voice was deep enough or
rough enough or bored enough or as sexy as yours always ends up
sounding.
How did that happen? Why did you do that to me?
I'm fixated on you. Help me.
"
(suoh mikoto & yukina)
